Has it been that long already?

I cannot believe this is the 5th week of the semester already! If time keeps flying like this I will no doubt have my degree in no time! Tomorrow I have my first midterms for two of my classes. Excited? Not so much. My one class should be no problem, a lot of the information in review for me from a computer class I took at Delta. But the other class... that is my interior design class, and the grade is based solely on 3 tests and an essay! And to top that off, the class is a lecture only class so it is a lot of information to take in and a lot of memorization of slides. On the bright side that test is the first one so I can just get it done and out of the way. Well I guess I'd better stop procrastinating and go study!

So....

I am having a difficult time getting myself back into church. After being inactive for the past few years it is very difficult for me to find the "will power" to start going back again. I know I want to, I know I need to, it is just so hard to actually start again. I keep telling myself this week I will go, but the week comes and goes and I still have not went. I hate this, while I was working on Sundays and could not go, I really wanted to go and even talked to my boss to try to figure out ways that might make it possible, but in the end she said no. Now that I have nothing stopping me why is it so hard for me to actually take the step and go?! I think on of the hardest things for me is that I do not really know anyone. I hate going to church ALONE when I know no one, I though once I started institute I would meet some people and feel a little more comfortable starting church, but I still do not know anyone, that is one thing I HATE about being so shy!!! On the up side I am going to institute so that is a start, but it is still not church. I have to say I do love my institute class though. My teacher is so enthusiastic and I love how after we read a section of scriptures he "rewords" it or tells a little story of his own and it really makes everything clear to me. Often times I have a hard time understanding what I am reading in the scriptures so having him tell it in his own words really helps me, and the fact that he is so excited about it makes me excited too! I have never read any of the scriptures all the way through on my own. Most of what I have read was in seminary when I was in high school and my Book of Mormon reader when I was a child, and though I remember some of the stories and lessons I really want to read them for myself. I love to read and I read all these books all the time so I thought to myself this is the next thing I am going to read! That is my goal for myself, I want to finish at least one of the scriptures by the end of the year. I'm not sure which one I should start with though, I think the New Testament because I love the stories in it but I'm not sure. Please any advice about trying to become active again or on where to start with the reading is greatly appreciated.

Stress-Free and Loving Life

Between adjusting to my "new" life, new school, and no job I thought I would be extremely stressed out, (especially since I tend to stress about everything!) but I find that I have been surprisingly relaxed. Of course I do get stressed from time to time about money, but who doesn't. It is almost weird to me to be living so calmly. School is keeping me very busy, but I think the really reason I have not been getting stressed out is because I am not having to worry about work and therefore I actually have time to focus on school and do all my homework and still have time to have a life and have fun. I have just gotten so use to having to juggle school and work and friends and it always seemed that work and friends came first so school just go pushed aside and I would do my homework and stuff right before class. It is so nice to not have to deal with that anymore! I am just loving the chance to live on my own, and even though it can often be lonely I just have to remind myself to ENJOY it while I can so that is what I am doing.

Be My Valentine

So valentines day was fun, not what we had originally planned, but we had fun anyways. We had planned to go to Outback (my favorite restaurant) for dinner then I have some movie tickets I got for Christmas so we were gonna go see Mall Cop after, then my mom gave me a little money so we could go out for dessert after. Then last night Jason and I decided that since it was going to be so busy at every restaurant that we would save some money and just make dinner and then go out for the rest of the evening after dinner. So today we went to Win Co and bought pork chops, stuff for cheesy potatoes, asparagus, and stuff for a salad. It turned out so good! I am so proud of myself... this is the first time that I have ever timed everything perfectly so that everything was done at just about the same time and it tasted very good! Then about halfway through me cooking dinner Jason's friend called and wanted to come over... I would have said no because of our plans, but this friend drives big rigs and we haven't gotten to hang out with him for like 2 months so we invited him over too. We decided not to go to the movies tonight and just stay in and watch movies on TV. Instead Jason said we could go to the movies this upcoming week to make up for it. I have to say I am a little disappointed that I didn't get my cheesecake I planned on having for dessert, but all in all it was a fun evening and we saved money by staying in and we had a good time hanging out with an old friend. I guess we'll just have to get my cheesecake when we go to the movies!

So I have a friend at school that we have all of our classes together so we are hanging out outside of class too. We have both decided that we want to be involved with school activities and not just the education aspect of it. So this past Thursday a club at school offered a free comedy show so we went, it was so much fun I am super glad that I have made this friend that wants to do the things that I want to do too, because I know that I would not go to something like that on my own.

Ahhhhhhh!!!!!

Some people have absolutely no consideration at all!! How can people be so self centered, selfish, and rude?!!!! So since I don't have a job yet and my dad wants me to focus on school he told me that for the time being he will pay my half of the utilities so that I can pay off my bill and save up money and not be super stressed about finding a job or having to work full time instead of just part time. So that includes my comcast... phone, internet, AND cable. Anyways to the point... I had some friends over to hang out, see the house, and spend the night about a month ago. Well, I got a phone call tonight from my dad, not mad, but just telling me that he agreed to pay the comcast but that he's not gonna pay for anything ordered on pay per view... so I'm thinking well I watch movies on-demand... did I accidently order something that costs? Then he told me I have to pay him the $15 for the movie... so now I'm like I KNOW I didn't order that... So needless to say when he told me the date it was ordered and all the details... i know EXACTLY who it was and I am not to happy! How rude to order a movie on SOMEONE else's tv WITHOUT asking!!! and what pisses me off even more is that I know I'm gonna be stuck paying for it because they don't even have a job to pay for it and if they do pay for it it will only be because their parents give ME the money because if they gave it to this person I would never get it. It is just plain ridiculous! I just cannot believe the nerve of some people... and then when I confronted him about it he blamed it on his girlfriend... its like come on grow up! If I was at my friends house and Jason ordered something without asking and he wasn't gonna pay for it I would give my friend the money. Man all I can say about this is SOME PEOPLE!!!